I’m feeling much better today. Thanks bunches to all of you for your suggestions and well wishes.
Been a while since I’ve mentioned weight loss stuff. I haven’t been to the gym in God knows when, but I’ve had 2 people insist that I am losing weight this week. I am conquering my addiction to the scale and therefore have no idea if they’re right or not. Maybe I’ll check it out this week.
My life has been too hectic to focus on anything but making sure I have a roof over my head. Ex stuff is finally catching up to him, and since they can’t get what they want from him, guess who they’re coming after?? Yep, you guessed it, yours truly. I keep telling myself that this will come to an end. It will be over and I will have my life back.
I never realized how much significance a name has. I want my last name back. It will be good riddance to the last reminder of how I lost myself to someone else. It will remain a memorial to me and a reminder to never lose myself again.
I am so sleepy these days. All I want to do is sleep. Someone said that it sounds like depression, but I think it’s exhaustion. Stress wears you out. I really don’t think I’m depressed. Angry, frustrated, anxious for this to be over? Yes. Actually I’m quite motivated. I’m getting a lot of things done that I’ve been sitting on, because it’s crunch time now.
I was watching Dancing with the Stars last night. One of the contestants is going through a divorce and she seemed like she was so down and hurt by it. She mentioned that she needed this competition to distract her. I’ve been separated for 17 months now. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been in my adult life. Am I strange because I view my divorce as the best thing that could possibly be happening to me right now? Don’t get me wrong, I cried. It hurt. It was a hard decision to make. But I made it and I’m thrilled. Is that wrong?
This is the most I’ve ever really talked about my divorce here.
It’s grey and cozy today. Just like I like it. Anybody got a pillow?
UPDATE: Just a little friendly reminder to those in contention that Survivor Cook Islands on CBS starts tomorrow, Thursday, September 14th, 8pm et/pt. Be there. I’ll bring the popcorn.