I’m practicing non-attachment by letting go of some things today. I actually started yesterday. See, one of my intentions for the year was to take an honest assessment of my belongings and clear out clutter. It’s part of my attempt to live more simply and to really understand why the hell I have the same shirt in 6 colors! It amazes me that the happier I become with life the more clearly I see the many, many ways I tried to fill up unhappy voids with all kinds of things.
I started with the top drawer in my chest-of-drawers, then my dresser, then my closet. The first drawer was my sock drawer and it was a little overwhelming. How do you pick which socks to send to Goodwill?? For the most part my socks never really need to match my outfit because, if it’s cold enough to wear socks, I usually have on boots. Or I’m going to work out and matching socks don’t really matter. But having enough clean socks is like having enough clean underwear. I couldn’t think about this as superfluous at the moment, so I moved on. I filled 3 huge lawn and garden bags with clothes I either don’t wear, can’t fit, don’t like,or haven’t touched in a couple of seasons — lots of them were outfits I planned to wear, but have never found the opportunity. Some things posed a bit of an internal struggle — especially if it was something I considered “really nice”, or if it was something I thought someone I know can use. But Goodwill is a good cause and a necessity for plenty of people so, off these things go.
Why are we so attached to silly things like clothes — especially clothes we only bought because they were really cheap on the clearance rack? I am planning to build a wardrobe for my new shape and size that includes a few quality pieces that really are right for me. Quality over quantity will be my method of replacing the “big girl” clothes. Besides, I am learning that I am not the kind of person who needs lots of choices. I can’t decide what to wear when I have 100 items to choose from. Give me 20 pieces to mix and match and I’ll create masterpieces! I learned this when I could only FIT 20 of the 100 items hanging in my closet. Do you know how overwhelming laundry can be when you have more clothes than God?!?! I am even getting to the point where I envy my friends who have to wash every week. It takes me an entire day to get through my laundry (once/month though it may be), which is just insane!
I also want to make space on my bookshelf — but letting go of books borders on blasphemous! How do you do this? Someone, please, give me a formula, a guide. How does one downsize a bookshelf. I am watching Clean House right now and if they asked me to get rid of books the way they make these people get rid of their clutter, the deal would be off!! Any tips on getting this done?
I threw a bunch of stuff in the trash that just take up space — picture frames, trinkets, jewelry I don’t wear, food storage containers, cards, bags. But how do you throw away purses??? I am having as much trouble with them as I am with books. But, get this. I don’t use them!!! I would much rather put my credit card and ID in my back pocket and lip gloss in my hip pocket and be on my way. But, when I want to be cute once in a while, I have about 10 bags to accentuate an outfit. I really think it’s nuts for someone who really doesn’t carry a purse that often to have 10. But then I feel like what girl doesn’t have 10 purses? Conflicted, to say the least.
This weekend is a start. I obviously have a lot of work to do. Letting go is not as easy as I thought it would be.