I’m a Believer!

Im Free to be Perfectly Balanced

I'm Free to be Perfectly Balanced

Today I am absolutely convinced of the power of intention.  I am finding my comfy spot in what has been, up to this point, a love-hate relationship with it.  I love that I spent December 31st setting intentions for 2009 and that when I reviewed that list on January 31st a significant portion, 9 of 39 actually, of those intentions have already manifested.  I hate that this means that I have wasted a lot of time believing that the outcome of my life was up to someone else.  And I hate that it means that a lot of the mess in my life has been self-induced because I didn’t know any better.  Meh. Water under the bridge — now I know, and it’s on!

In class Sunday (at Institute for Integrative Nutrition, where I’m studying to be a holistic health counselor) we were asked to write down some intentions for the next week.  I set the intention to let go of a relationship that’s standing in the way of another intention — to have the relationship I want.  I specifically set Friday as my target date to have this completed.  Wouldn’t you know that on the bus from NY last night I couldn’t shake the urgency to go ahead and end it.  The email composed itself in my head as the tears streamed down my face.  The knot in my stomach grew tighter and tighter and served as my reminder of how much energy I was sending into this wasteland.  The tears were cleansing — a loss is a loss — but were also mixed with a bit of fear.  I worried that I’d have to lose the entire friendship and not just the part that’s standing in the way of my future. Well, it’s Monday and by 9:00 this morning it was all done.  Finished. Over.  And the friendship remains in tact. Upon re-reading the specific intention I wrote down – it says, “Release “Guy” – while hopefully maintaining the friendship.”  So which would you say was more real, more powerful?  My fear of losing the friendship or the intention to keep it?  This grows curiouser and curiouser and I’m having fun with it all.

And that’s just one example–there are so many more here as I flip through my journal.  Get clear on what you want in life and the Universe delivers.  I can’t tell you how many times I’ve seen this work in my life in the past few months alone — and, if I’m honest, I can see how it worked when I was clear about how miserable my life was as well.  What you give your energy to grows — I’m such a believer!

So my energy is going toward creating the life I want.  It’s happening so fast it’s a little mind boggling.  The number of like-minded people who have come into my world is astounding.  They don’t come close to outnumbering the one’s who think I’m weird — but they definitely out-shine them.  There will always be those who think Lex is off her rocker.  They’ve always been around.  The only difference is that now they don’t affect me — not one single bit.  In fact, they amuse me.  Through it all I dare them, just dare them to try it.  Put more energy into your happiness than you do into your misery and see what happens!

Ah.  Loving life at the moment, Folks.  Loving it immensely.

Im free to do what I want any old time
Im free to do what I want any old time
So love me hold me love me hold me
Im free any old time to get what I want


A few words on CHANGE, until I can say more

I am still not ready to write about my feelings about this election. I am trying to fully experience and fully understand all that I am feeling, all the implications without reducing them to words just yet.

With that said, however, I give you my new favorite website.

Participate in the change!

Participate in the change!

Change only began on Tuesday. Please continue to be an active part of bringing about the change we need in America. Find the issues that matter to you and make your voice heard. America is a country “of the people, for the people, by the people”, but the people must be involved. Participate. This Administration is asking to hear from you. Speak up!

I need the dust to settle. But in the meantime…

I moved last weekend and I continue to bring car loads of odds and ends from the old apartment.  I should bring the last car load on Saturday.  There are, however, certain things that absolutely must be in place on the new end for me to be sane.  I must do the following within the first 2 days:

  1. Unpack and organize my bedroom and closet.
  2. Install my detatchable shower head.
  3. Unpack the box marked “Priority 1 Books”.
  4. Unpack my knives and spices.

My bedroom has to be in order as close to immediately as possible.  I have to be able to retreat from the mayhem of boxes and bags, close the door and find order and peace.  My sanctuary.

The detachable shower head is just a must because — when you’re sweaty and funky from carrying boxes up and down stairs — this is not the time to make adjustments to your bathing protocol. One needs all the comforts and accoutrements she’s used to.

Do I even need to mention why Book Box 1 must be unpacked?  I didn’t think so.

Same for knives and spices.  I can make do with any pan, but I need my knives and spices to make a comforting meal.

What about you?  When you move, what are the first things you need access to?