I'm Free to be Perfectly Balanced
Today I am absolutely convinced of the power of intention. I am finding my comfy spot in what has been, up to this point, a love-hate relationship with it. I love that I spent December 31st setting intentions for 2009 and that when I reviewed that list on January 31st a significant portion, 9 of 39 actually, of those intentions have already manifested. I hate that this means that I have wasted a lot of time believing that the outcome of my life was up to someone else. And I hate that it means that a lot of the mess in my life has been self-induced because I didn’t know any better. Meh. Water under the bridge — now I know, and it’s on!
In class Sunday (at Institute for Integrative Nutrition, where I’m studying to be a holistic health counselor) we were asked to write down some intentions for the next week. I set the intention to let go of a relationship that’s standing in the way of another intention — to have the relationship I want. I specifically set Friday as my target date to have this completed. Wouldn’t you know that on the bus from NY last night I couldn’t shake the urgency to go ahead and end it. The email composed itself in my head as the tears streamed down my face. The knot in my stomach grew tighter and tighter and served as my reminder of how much energy I was sending into this wasteland. The tears were cleansing — a loss is a loss — but were also mixed with a bit of fear. I worried that I’d have to lose the entire friendship and not just the part that’s standing in the way of my future. Well, it’s Monday and by 9:00 this morning it was all done. Finished. Over. And the friendship remains in tact. Upon re-reading the specific intention I wrote down – it says, “Release “Guy” – while hopefully maintaining the friendship.” So which would you say was more real, more powerful? My fear of losing the friendship or the intention to keep it? This grows curiouser and curiouser and I’m having fun with it all.
And that’s just one example–there are so many more here as I flip through my journal. Get clear on what you want in life and the Universe delivers. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve seen this work in my life in the past few months alone — and, if I’m honest, I can see how it worked when I was clear about how miserable my life was as well. What you give your energy to grows — I’m such a believer!
So my energy is going toward creating the life I want. It’s happening so fast it’s a little mind boggling. The number of like-minded people who have come into my world is astounding. They don’t come close to outnumbering the one’s who think I’m weird — but they definitely out-shine them. There will always be those who think Lex is off her rocker. They’ve always been around. The only difference is that now they don’t affect me — not one single bit. In fact, they amuse me. Through it all I dare them, just dare them to try it. Put more energy into your happiness than you do into your misery and see what happens!
Ah. Loving life at the moment, Folks. Loving it immensely.
Im free to do what I want any old time
Im free to do what I want any old time
So love me hold me love me hold me
Im free any old time to get what I want
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