I’m a Believer!

Im Free to be Perfectly Balanced

I'm Free to be Perfectly Balanced

Today I am absolutely convinced of the power of intention.  I am finding my comfy spot in what has been, up to this point, a love-hate relationship with it.  I love that I spent December 31st setting intentions for 2009 and that when I reviewed that list on January 31st a significant portion, 9 of 39 actually, of those intentions have already manifested.  I hate that this means that I have wasted a lot of time believing that the outcome of my life was up to someone else.  And I hate that it means that a lot of the mess in my life has been self-induced because I didn’t know any better.  Meh. Water under the bridge — now I know, and it’s on!

In class Sunday (at Institute for Integrative Nutrition, where I’m studying to be a holistic health counselor) we were asked to write down some intentions for the next week.  I set the intention to let go of a relationship that’s standing in the way of another intention — to have the relationship I want.  I specifically set Friday as my target date to have this completed.  Wouldn’t you know that on the bus from NY last night I couldn’t shake the urgency to go ahead and end it.  The email composed itself in my head as the tears streamed down my face.  The knot in my stomach grew tighter and tighter and served as my reminder of how much energy I was sending into this wasteland.  The tears were cleansing — a loss is a loss — but were also mixed with a bit of fear.  I worried that I’d have to lose the entire friendship and not just the part that’s standing in the way of my future. Well, it’s Monday and by 9:00 this morning it was all done.  Finished. Over.  And the friendship remains in tact. Upon re-reading the specific intention I wrote down – it says, “Release “Guy” – while hopefully maintaining the friendship.”  So which would you say was more real, more powerful?  My fear of losing the friendship or the intention to keep it?  This grows curiouser and curiouser and I’m having fun with it all.

And that’s just one example–there are so many more here as I flip through my journal.  Get clear on what you want in life and the Universe delivers.  I can’t tell you how many times I’ve seen this work in my life in the past few months alone — and, if I’m honest, I can see how it worked when I was clear about how miserable my life was as well.  What you give your energy to grows — I’m such a believer!

So my energy is going toward creating the life I want.  It’s happening so fast it’s a little mind boggling.  The number of like-minded people who have come into my world is astounding.  They don’t come close to outnumbering the one’s who think I’m weird — but they definitely out-shine them.  There will always be those who think Lex is off her rocker.  They’ve always been around.  The only difference is that now they don’t affect me — not one single bit.  In fact, they amuse me.  Through it all I dare them, just dare them to try it.  Put more energy into your happiness than you do into your misery and see what happens!

Ah.  Loving life at the moment, Folks.  Loving it immensely.

Im free to do what I want any old time
Im free to do what I want any old time
So love me hold me love me hold me
Im free any old time to get what I want

Feel the Energy!!!

I just sent this email to my friends.  Can you feel the excitement?!?!  I can and I’m bouncing in my chair!

OK Guys, Listen!

I don’t have time to make some fancy-schmancy Evite — so deal with this email, OK?

I’m getting divorced TOMORROW!!!! I’m so excited I want bounce of the walls. I’ve been sitting at my desk singing, “Tomorrow, tomorrow. I love ya, Tomorrow. You’re only A DAY AWAY!!”

I plan to leave court and change my clothes and head over to XXXXXXXX’s Pub in XXXXX XXXXX (address was here). I have reserved a table for 20 at 6pm for all who would like come and help me celebrate my FREEDOM!! Whoooo Hooooo!!!

I know it’s short notice, but I don’t care. Make time to come and have at least one drink with me, K?

Otherwise, I am planning to have a big party party…but I’ll do that in tandum with my 35th birthday in June since I should have more money then and since some sticks in the mud might object to celebrating divorce (like I care!).

Let me know who’s coming so I can get a BIGGER table if needed. Not SMALLER because I expect to see your a$$es there!!

Got it?!?!




P.S. If you didn’t get this email and you think you should have — you are right!! So email me and I’ll send you the details.

Five Days Left!

I am coming to the end of my last weekend as a married woman.  How exciting!  People are already offering their congratulations.  I love it when people get it.  This really is a great moment in my life.  And I had a T-Shirt made to mark to occasion.  I’m considering posting it but since it has my last name on it, I’ll think about it a little more before I do.  I’ve already mentioned it here before and was dumb enough to have it in my old URL, so it probably won’t matter.

I will, however, post pics of the post court celebration.  I’m certain I’ll still be wearing it (oh, dear–at least I hope I keep my shirt on).  I’m so excited.  If you’re a regular reader, please don’t be disappointed to come back all week and just read about how excited I am about my divorce on Friday. I won’t be talking about anything else.

I didn’t expect to amass the clan of spectators that I have.  That should be interesting.  At first I wanted it just to be me, my lawyer and my witness but, on second thought, if he has a bunch of family support I’m going to need back-up.  Tee hee.

My cousin said something to me about Friday and I started doing a little dance.  She said, “Wow, Lexi, you weren’t this excited about your wedding.”  Truer words…

Bye. I’ll be back to gush more as the week progresses.

Love you, Lovelies.